so today i didn't speak at all. like yesterday. i didn't even meet anyone yesterday. the day before, i only spoke to my parents on skype. I've been depressed since last Tuesday. don't know what the cause was but I've been unable to crawl back up again. I went to a slow food event tonight which I'd signed up for quite a while ago. I wouldn't have gone if i hadn't paid in advance. I didn't talk much there either. Lauren, who is one of the members, told me to "mingle" and tried to make me smile but i couldn't. Its like i don't exist in class as well. The psychology class don't interest me either. They started like 2 weeks ago and its depressing to think I'm going to study it for the next 3 years. then again, i don7t have anything else that i can do instead. i want to cut but i'm afraid i don't be able to stop for 5months again.
fuck this im going to bed.