Jessie and me @ pizza party. She turned out to be almost gay. (And a self harmer judging from her left arm.)
Seems like I'm having a healthy social life, huh?
I think so too. But somehow I feel like I don't fit in with any group of friends. I get random friend requests from people who probably know me but I don't know/remember them. And I never hang out with anybody. I just see other people hang out with each other and say Hi if I pass by. I feel just as out of place as I felt in Japan. I'm supposed to be both Japanese and British. But it feels like I'm not welcome in neither countries. I would have thought it would be easier to make friends in the UK as there is more racial diversity. Guess I was mistaken.
Or maybe it's just me. I'm doing it wrong.
Or maybe I'm the kind of person who never has friends.
Or I could just admit that I don't like to be around people if I don't have to. And yet I want some sort of connection. With someone I can open up completely. Like my best friend from Junior High. Like my cram school teacher/nurse/friend. Like nobody at the moment.