When An Invisible Tranny Becomes Visible

I've been watching transition documentary vids on YouTube by many people (mostly female to male) and it's surprising to see that they look so un-tranny. I mean, you wouldn't realize that they are trans if you see them walking down the street. This is because they are on hormones (Testosterone). If you listen to them talk before T and after, the change is CLEAR.

The Voice Change Is DRASTIC.

People who aren't on T sounds like a woman's voice trying to sound like man, you know? I've written in my previous post that I'm very conscious about my voice and I guess I sound like a woman trying to sound manly too. It takes a lot of effort to keep my voice low and it's very tiring to have to think about the pitch before every time I speak. If I say something without thing about my voice and controlling it, it comes out as a complete female voice which is very embarrassing.
I think I don't look too feminine if I don't speak except for the fact that my hips are quite curvy. I'm an INvisible Tranny.

Once I speak, I become a Visible Tranny.

The other day, when I was talking with my friends when waiting for the school bus to leave school, a friend of the friend I was talking to came up to us. My friend asked him out of the blue if he thought that I was a girl or a boy. He instantly said "Girl, obviously" so I asked him why he thought so and he said "your voice is high."

Yeah. I agree with you.

I wasn't offended both by my friend for asking the question or this guy for being too honest. I guess I've grown up. :-)

Anyway, voice is one of the things that makes a tranny visible.

Another thing is my name.

My really name is not Shane and I don't write my on school papers unless it's REALLY necessary.

My real name means "Love child" in Japanese which is a nice name but it screams out that I'm not really a guy. I envy unisex names like Hikaru (meaning light) and Yuuki (has various meanings).

"Shane" is a unisex name and sounds good and it's the name of my favorite character on The L Word. The Shane on The L Word is a very considerate person and the kind of person who I want to be.

As I won the speech contest the other day, my name will be on the school newspaper. I fear that when people who just know my surname and don't know that I'm trans will be confused.

There's a girl in the sports class who says she's my fan since I did a presentation in front of the whole year (which is like 600 students) last year. I don't see her often but every time she sees me, she waves at me and I wave back. She even said "I love youuuuuu!!!!!!" the other day which was very sweet.
I don't know what will think when she sees my name in the newsletter.

Summer is not hot

NO I don't live in the Southern hemisphere. It is getting hot outside. Sensitive teachers like to turn the air conditioning right up and for students who sit under where the cold air comes out, it is torture.
We had IT class today and as we went into the computer room, nearly all of us gasped "God it's freezing in here!" I don't know how clod it was but it was obvious that it was too cold. Nobody could be bothered to change the settings and I was practically rubbing my hands though the 55 minute class. When the class finally was over, I rushed out the freezing room. I could feel my body was cold. It was a relief that the next class was PE (basketball) and I warmed up.

The teachers are still in the discussion about whether they will allow us to take off our ties during the summer. The teachers who are against it says if students take of their ties, they wouldn't wear the uniforms properly. Fear enough, many students wear their uniforms badly. Wearing it badly means mini-skirts, wearing the trousers baggy, shirts hanging out. But with people screaming "Stop global warming!", it only makes sense if they stop using the air conditioning so much.
The people who say "Turn the air conditioning on!!!!" as soon as they come into the class room is the ones who are so goddamn sensitive.

Art

Today my AMAZING teacher lent me a photo book about a graffiti artist called Banksy. It's nothing like I've seen before and it's really cool. I like looking at graffiti art if I happen to see one but there's not many that I can figure out what is says. Most of the ones I see here in Japan are really crappy compare to the ones in the UK. Here is a little photo I took in Bath when I went this year.

This is not very impressive like the ones that Banksy does.

My favorite artist is Dylan Scholinski and he is also the author of my favorite book "The Last Time I Wore A Dress."

Friend

OK so I was pissed off with my racist friend and I was ignoring him for a couple of days. However, I came to think that ignoring wouldn't solve anything so we talked it out. He seems to understands now that China and Russia won't start a war against Japan because one of my cleverer friends gave a good reason why they won't (Japan imports a lot from China and Russia and if they start a war, it won't do good for them).
So that's done (although there still are problems about him like he doesn't listen to what I want to say and likes to go on and on about black people).
There's a girl in my class who seems to be starting to notice that many of her girl friends are not being friendly to her. I think the fault is hers because she's getting more and more selfish. She doesn't come and clean the class room when she's supposed to and looks like she's thinking only about her own studying and helping out others is less important.
Everyone is under pressure this year because it's the big year preparing for the entrance exam for university. She's not the only one.
I just hope I'm not that kind of person.